My biggest fear besides like heights and being buried alive is someone breaking into my house while I’m here alone, which is often. I get so paranoid, especially at night, when I hear a noise or see a car drive by my house. There have been several incidences where I was SO sure someone really was trying to break in so I’d have 911 dialed on my phone, ready to press call as I sat in my bed with a hammer-as if I could really hit someone with a fucking hammer. Tonight WAS one of those nights but I just realized everyone’s probably too busy watching the Superbowl to go around breaking in and shit so I’m going to get drunk and take a bath. Don’t worry about me, I’ll bring my hammer and I’d probably be a better a fight when I’m drinking anyway so I’m gucci~

Tonight is the best I’ve had in a while! I have so much to be happy about. First and most important, my mom is checking into rehab tomorrow! This probably sounds like a redneck dream come true but the only thing I can compare it to is a huge weight being lifted off of me. I am crying, it’s such a joy. Secondly, my sister returned home SAFE AND SOUND after having run away from home almost 2 weeks ago. And lastly, my dad gave me 20 bucks so I can put some gas in my car and get drunk with my best friends tomorrow. I feel so at peace right now, for the first time in weeks I am content. 

Applying for jobs because I’m an adult now

how does one…adult?

Goooodbye purple hair </3

If happy girls are pretty girls, what the fuck does that make me

(Source: quote-book, via which-witch)

It’s weird how my cat purring actually calms me down sometimes 

It ain’t me, babe

this fucking sucks.

in other news i never fully appreciated pink floyd until i had my heart broken. 

finally headed home this morning! not looking forward to the 5 hour drive, but I cannot WAIT to smoke in my car, sleep in my bed, cuddle with my cats, and of course see Christian.:))

I feel bad about being eager to leave, and I will miss my family down here, but there is waaaayy too much tension and negative energy. What do you do in rough family situations like this though? Try and intervene and fix the issue? Stay out of it? Close yourself up in your sister’s bedroom and sit on the internet all day???